بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

"Who needs a life anyway?"

I was reading my in-lecture notes when I came across this scribbles. Also I'm trying out the Blogger apps on iPod.

Our lecturer is a nice man well-equipped with vast knowledge on Toxicology. I feel like being dumped with a bucket of sorrow.

The lecture is on General Toxicology, but at this rate, I shudder at the amount of Toxicology we're to study in this barely two months.

Of course, no one cares how I feel, not even myself. This post is to cement the fact that if you don't study, you're not a student. Who needs a life anyway?


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Obviously someone was preventing herself from bolting out of the lecture for a much needed cuppa.

Let's see if we can manually use HTML here..

Edited 19 November:
I figured out what is the catch with the brilliant Blogger apps. It doesn't resize the pictures to the nicely-fit 400px.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Reformasi Telus: Dilema Rakyat Mesir

Giza, 26 Oktober - Satu debat terbuka anjuran The Doha Debates telah berlangsung di Giza membawakan usul sensitif dalam kehangatan sebulan sebelum pilihan raya parlimen Mesir; "Pemerintahan tentera Mesir tidak berminat dengan reformasi yang telus".

Debat kali ini dibarisi panel-panel yang hebat iaitu Dr. Mohamed Fahmy Menza dari parti politik Misr Al Horreyaa dan Heba Mourayef, penyelidik di Pemerhati Hak Asasi Manusia bagi pihak pencadang dan Jeneral (Bersara) Sameh Seif-Elyazal, bekas diplomat dan Dr. Gamal Abdel Gawad Sultan, pengarah Pusat Penyelidikan Politik dan Strategi Al-Ahram (ACPSS) Kaherah di pihak pembangkang.

Kira-kira 170 orang hadirin, rata-ratanya terdiri daripada golongan elit Mesir, ekspatriat dan mahasiswa dari jurusan masing-masing datang bagi memerhati isu yang sensitif ini termasuklah lima orang mahasiswa perubatan Malaysia. Debat telah bermula pada jam 8.00 malam dan tamat kira-kira 9.30 malam.

Debat yang dilihat hangat dan berinformasi namun kekurangan profesionalisme berbanding yang diperhatikan dalam debat terbuka di Malaysia dek ahli panel yang dilihat menyampuk satu sama lain serta kurang menghormati tuan moderator debat. "Perangai tipikal orang Mesir," komen salah seorang hadirin yang memuji keberanian mereka mendebatkan perkara sesensitif peralihan kuasa oleh Majlis Tertinggi Angkatan Tentera (SCAF) ini.

Hadirin dimaklumkan oleh tuan moderator sidang, Tim Sebastian yang juga merupakan Pengerusi The Doha Debates akan kesukaran yang dihadapi dalam penganjuran debat pada kali ini berikutan permit mereka ditolak pihak berkuasa Mesir. Debat kali ini yang sepatutnya berlangsung di Wekalat Bazaraa di El Gamalia terpaksa ditukarkan tempatnya ke Fine Arts Studio, sebuah studio peribadi yang lebih kecil di sudut Giza dengan keseluruhan hadirin separuh daripada kebiasaannya.

Implikasi kepada debat ini menampakkan jurang pemisah pemikiran dalam kalangan rakyat Mesir sendiri, dengan golongan atasan dan elit kelihatan lebih mengetahui kehendak mereka terutamanya dalam aspek pembangunan negara serta halatuju revolusi Mesir berbanding rakyat kelas bawahan yang sekadar mahukan makanan dan pakaian yang mencukupi, kerja yang tetap serta kestabilan yang disediakan pihak tentera Mesir.

Meskipun laporan media mengatakan SCAF mendapat sokongan padu 70% rakyat Mesir, perkara ini dibantah salah seorang hadirin dalam sesi soal jawab kerana "menghormati pihak tentera merupakan semulajadi bagi rakyat (Mesir) sejak mereka mengalahkan Israel pada 1960-an dahulu, tidak bermaksud mereka layak menguruskan negara ini." dan hal ini disokong hadirin yang lain apabila usul ini diterima dengan majoriti 84.7%.

Seorang pelajar Malaysia yang menolak usul ini mengatakan kes yang dibawakan pihak pencadang adalah lemah dan mereka sekadar membawakan poin-poin kecil dalam perdebatan kali ini. "Usul ini diterima kemungkinan besar bukan kerana kualiti perdebatan, sebaliknya kerana hadirin sudahpun mempunyai mindset masing-masing sebelum memenuhi studio ini."

The Doha Debates dibiayai Yayasan Pembangunan Pendidikan, Sains dan Masyarakat Qatar dan menggunapakai format debat yang diperhalusi Kesatuan Oxford yang terkenal. Debat mereka ditayangkan di BBC World News dan boleh diikuti menerusi laman rasmi mereka.

Mahasiswa Malaysia yang mengikuti debat kali ini,
dari kanan: Safwan Roslan, Hazrie Hayat, Adzim Yusoff.
Tiada dalam gambar: Radin Rahmah, Atiqah Hanifah.

Sesudah tamatnya debat, kumpulan mahasiswa Malaysia ini didekati seorang mahasiswa kejuruteraan Universiti Kaherah yang memaklumkan mengenai cadangan penubuhan Kelab Debat di Mesir dan beliau berhajat kepada penglibatan mahasiswa-mahasiswa Malaysia terutamanya bagi perkongsian kemahiran berdebat.

"Saya telah memerhatikan debat di Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia dan sangat kagum dengan kemahiran kalian. Seperti yang anda lihat (dalam debat tadi), kami mempunyai maklumat tetapi kurang kemahiran kerana tiada pendedahan kepada debat di sekolah-sekolah kami."

Penglibatan mahasiswa Malaysia dalam Kelab Debat ini dilihat dapat merancakkan lagi perkongsian dan merapatkan lagi hubungan dan jaringan antarabangsa antara mahasiswa Mesir dan Malaysia.


p/s: Reunion BPP in style! ;D

Thursday, October 20, 2011

"Focus on the wrong thing, you get killed."

It has to be Forensic is inducing such death-remembering moments for me nowadays. Sharing this from Clearheart's latest :)

"I could have killed you!" Naruto repeated.

"Yes, you could have," Sakura grunted in response.

"The village would have been down a medic!"

"Seriously," she agreed.

"Tsunade would have killed me!"

"You bet she would."

"Kakashi would have killed me!"

"He can be like that sometimes."

"And your parents! What would I have said to them?"

Monday, October 17, 2011

Streaming Sorrow


Last night I dreamt of my death. I was given time to say goodbye before I go but I didn't use the time well enough. There was never enough time to say goodbye..

I remember putting on a happy face to see Mama and Papa and not telling them anything was wrong. And Fatimah. Farahain I hugged her my last and I was already breaking down by that time.

Woke up with tears streaming down fast, the pillow drenched with sorrow.

And suddenly, this happened.

And you had certainly wished for martyrdom before you encountered it, and you have [now] seen it [before you] while you were looking on.
Chapter Al-'Imran: Verse 143

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Boycotted Dora

Yesterday at class, a classmate refused me something and I poorly took it as nagging (I am bad, I know) so I marched back to my place and promptly started a conversation with my benchmate. Said classmate called me from her place at the front but I dutifully ignored her.

She tried a peacemaker, the poor Nash in front of me.

"Ask Haru if she hates me or not?" D:

"Haru, Dora asks if you hate her."

"Tell Dora no but I am boycotting her."

"Dora, Haru is boycotting you."

"Whyyy??"

And so on but I happily continue talking with my benchmate as if nothing was on.

We had a break in between classes and during then, Dora jumped out of her seat and raced to where my bench was.

"Haru are you still boycotting meee?"

In true nature of ignorance, I ate my Nasi Lemak Ayam bought from Al-Abrar Katering in full content.

"How about I treat you to coffee?"

"Okay!!" I dropped my nasi lemak and smiled at her. I thought I saw her grimacing at how fast my nature flipped. What can I do, I'm a sucker for coffee, especially free ones.


As we both raced towards the row of kiosks in front of the morgue, she told me she couldn't study because I was ignoring her. I told her that I was only joking and the girls should never take me seriously.

But what I didn't tell her was that her guilt did got me feeling more that just a little guilty.

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You won't know just how much you affect another person. Let's practice good behaviour with everyone, be the best example anytime and may Allah open whoever's heart He wanted.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

don't ignore a mistake

because it'll only get worse next time around, seterusnya tertekan dengan sebesar-besar tekanan.



CADANGAN PENYELESAIAN:

a)
berlari sekarang
menuju satu pejabat di Awwal Manyal
bermukim di sana sehingga ia buka pagi esok

jadi orang pertama.


b)
jom n****s.


c)
main futsal
dalam rumah
bagi kurang sikit perasaan itu.

Friday, October 07, 2011

Before the Worst

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends, yeah talking 'til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

It began when dad decided to put us at that school to provide us with as much knowledge on Islam as possible. Counting the years till now, I'd say I have 11 years pocketed on this path.

Are you hearing me? 'Cause I don't wanna miss
That you would drift on memory bliss
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

Perhaps it's a syndrome for everyone not starting on his own will. After so long, it was probably out of habit that I seek it out on my own. There was an empty space so hollow in my heart. Only relieved, filled to the brim my happiness was palpable a mile away once I'm back with you guys.

We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Oh, who would've thought it would end up like this

It is selfish on my part that I was just happy to be a part of it, not very much contributing nor working hard for it. Read: I wasn't working hard for this relationship.

"Maybe I've been selfish," he muttered after a while. "I feed on your presence. Just watching you is enough for me, it sustains me. I give you nothing in return."

-Bullwinkle's Lady, Ultimatum

Relive the spark that was once there. It is still there, I know it! This relationship is too much valuable, it was once my lifeline and it sure is now. So don't give up on it. Not ever.

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong


I want in..

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Mak Lang #2

I just reached Jeddah and it was around 12am Malaysia that I received dad's text. Mak Lang passed away on 11.40pm (GMT+8).

I said my goodbye that morning but she was asleep then.

Mom said it was so sudden, could have been a heart attack. She had been recuperating after her stroke and it never occurred to me..

I am so sorry :'(


Written on 16th October.
Haru & Associates