One time I was doing rounds in PICU and the respectable Paeds MO called me over with a wave. By respectable I mean Danial who is smart and kind. He's the only known unmarried man around and he's cute so he's a sight for sore eyes, or my eyes any day.
He is Syukri's friend and Syukri tends to tease him every single time we go to do rounds in PICU. So I came to know that Danial is single, refusing all matchmaking, apparently heartbroken after three breakups (first was almost married but he got cold feet, second left him because he was always too busy with work, and third married someone else while he was being indecisive). I know all this from Syukri and so I told Syukri "I don't want you as a friend or my life will never be aman."
Syukri said he is emotionally unavailable and said he wouldn't suggest him to me because "nanti kau akan disakiti."
"It's a competition between who hurts whom first," was my response.
Anyway back to Danial waving at me. He was asking about this patient to STO for a delayed closure for a sternotomy. We had a discussion while standing around the patient, with me looking into his eyes and then realising I have a crush on this guy. I felt my cheeks burning from this misplaced blush and stupid grin so I turned my face away. And denied all this to myself with a mantra
"Damn this tall guy… My neck is hyperextending like I'm birdwatching. I'm not turning away because I'm shy, I'm turning away because of neck pain."
Pravin came and the discussion moved on to that of another case, with me looking at his face as he explained and I realised
"Darn this guy is even taller…"
So I turned to Bhindia who was about my height.
