self doubt doesn't help. it keeps focus away from analyzing and it makes you double over on everything and taking different routes only to come back at the same thing. i want to move forward but it's like a broken record, skipping on the same scratch.
to care is physiological. what is the difference between care and worry? what about fretting? i feel close to being a worry-prone crazy cat lady. except i don't have a cat.
a healthy dose of care? you mean there's actually dosage for care?
right. everything is toxic when in excess. i need something to control me.
and i can't talk this out. because by right there's only one person i should talk this with and i can't gauge the other's reaction. probably a silence. or an okay just to shut me up. God why am i so prejudicial?
because i know i am right? because statistically speaking, that's how the other is? because i am just tired of making the first move? because i am an impertinent snobbish blob of mess?
probably D. and C. yeah C sounds typical of an exhausted Choleric.
this is what happens when you spent a year on the run and had to always think 40 steps ahead.
to care is physiological. what is the difference between care and worry? what about fretting? i feel close to being a worry-prone crazy cat lady. except i don't have a cat.
a healthy dose of care? you mean there's actually dosage for care?
right. everything is toxic when in excess. i need something to control me.
and i can't talk this out. because by right there's only one person i should talk this with and i can't gauge the other's reaction. probably a silence. or an okay just to shut me up. God why am i so prejudicial?
because i know i am right? because statistically speaking, that's how the other is? because i am just tired of making the first move? because i am an impertinent snobbish blob of mess?
probably D. and C. yeah C sounds typical of an exhausted Choleric.
this is what happens when you spent a year on the run and had to always think 40 steps ahead.

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pardon the monologue. this whole fiasco reminds me of this. maybe we should pull a Dear Itachi..
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5906984/1/
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