We have a baby under our care at the NICU planning for a radiological investigation soon, but Fateh is still ventilated and who is going to accompany the baby; ICU team or the instigating team? Today our surgeon asked me and I said
"Ikut hati saya," while making forms for the blood I took. "Saya lagi confident Medical hantar patient dari HO Surgery."
Because let's face it, can they manage the ventilation part? When I was in Surgery, I couldn't.
"Kenapa kena ikut hati kau. Penting ke." Dr. Zafran taunted.
The MOs are used to bickering with me and it has become a regular for them, but I'm getting tired of being constantly treated harshly by the people I like. I know we're friends and we hang out together, but when we're talking about cases do I have to even request we be civil and professional? In front of the bosses no less?
So I answered sharply. "Penting sebab saya yang jaga dia." And that shut him up.
Afterwards I asked Luqman of the plan he wrote when Mr. Ruzaimie saw the case that I referred last night.
"What was the first word? I couldn't read your writing."
"Oh okay." I'll look it up, I'm not familiar with that term.
He was shutting the door behind him when he answered me but he made a double turn.
"The eyes don't see what the mind doesn't know." And then he left.
I held my tongue from making a comeback. I know he's in a midlife crisis but there was no need to be hateful like that. And what I asked was regarding a case, nothing personal. So why make a personal comment?
It's a good thing I am becoming a surgeon because I have a clear vision of what I want. Had I been a lesser person I would have abandoned these people. The surgeons are great, Dr. Aizat and Dr. Vicky support me academically, my sisters are amiable with me but these two idiots for MOs are pushing my limit, Luqman especially. It matters to me because I consider him my bro and I am stupidly sentimental, and he and Dr. Zafran are pushing it. Don't they see the lines between friends and professionalism?
If this happens again, if they can't stay professional and I keep taking this personally, I'm going to say "that's it" and walk out of this brotherhood.